this wknd.

i'm no longer asking for monetary assistance.

"is it an act of obedience?"

i'm not expecting things to be easy.

we'll see what happens.

stories that have new meanings for me:

+ joshua & the crossing of the river jordan

+ noah & his ark

by monday midnight, God.

fuel.

spiritual emphasis week:

+ dr. joseph's encouraging words today applied to me & even made me teary-eyed, though no one saw.

+ coach fenton's special music: Jesus loves me" jazz/swing style! how did she know that that's my JAM? :)

ken's txt: it feels so good to know that someone is willingly praying for you. :)

day 5: "Every day is an important day, and every second is a growth opportunity to deepen your character, to demonstrate love, or to depend on God."

day 6: "Life is a temporary assignment." gave me a new perspective/outlook on life.

currently: scholarship hunting, making phone calls, thinking, praying hard, trying to keep my head up.

thought that always keeps me going: "You never said it would be easy; You only said I wouldn't go alone."

"Do It Anyway"

*credited to Mother Teresa.

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

Be honest anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity happiness, they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

Be good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

out.

i seriously have the strongest urge right now to NOT be in cali.

i need to be away.

not that anything's wrong here,

cause,

don't get me wrong, nothing is.

i just want to experience something else.

i'm itching to go to a school out of state.

i'm pleading with God to somehow provide for Andrews.

i can't tell you how badly i want to go there.

even if i didn't know anyone there, i'd still really want to go.

i'm so interested in their programs (especially their photography program) and haven't been able to stop thinking about it.

*sigh*

40 days.

if we do it consistently & don't skip a day,

we should be finished on march 16.

DANG IT.

that's during my finals week. :((

i guess your finals week is the week before that.

AH GREAT.

*i just realized...if God works things out with AU before spring break, i'd actually be seeing you the next week!*

but anyways,

i'm determined.

EVERYday, k?

if hmwk, practice, etc. are priorities,

He should be one too.

ready? :)

day 1: CHECK.

before my day starts.

good morning, Daddy!

i love You. :)

peace, be still.

so many times i thought i knew what You wanted.

but i no longer know.

i talk to people & i become easily swayed.

one day, i'll feel so passionate about the ministry.

and another day, i feel You calling me to become a doctor.

no more running in circles.

no more emotional roller coasters.

no more talking to people.

no more trying to make things they're not.

no more trying to live up to people's expectations.

no more second-guessing.

i'm waiting on You, God.

i've surrendered, and now i'm waiting for Your voice.

i'm ready to listen.

what do You want to do with my life?

how can i have that life?

& not just any life, as pastor tim said.

but that life "more abundant"?