*phew.

Youthical today was quite...interesting.

we suffered many technical difficulties, which really disappointed me.

after all of the hard work that we put into this, we needed things to run smoothly & we needed to sound good. what's the use in practicing so hard if the audience can't hear us?

but w/e. there are things that aren't in our control.

we're not professional.

i can't let it bother me.

i have to be proud of all of us.

i have to focus on the positive things.

like...

Youthical is so much more than a show or a fundraiser.

it's done a lot of things for us.

for example:

#1) it's given people a chance to do things that they normally wouldn't do. like giving solos to those who don't normally sing and letting them experience being on stage. or giving people a chance to choreograph dance. (case in point, me! i've never choreographed anything in my life before...but i choreographed some hip hop and waltz-y stuff for tonight! & it was so much fun!)

#2) it brought all of us closer together as friends. and we got to know people that we normally wouldn't hang out with. i've spent well over 50 hours with these people working on this project. i was there at 6pm and didn't leave til 10:30/11:00p.m. everyday. last sunday, i had dance practice for 5 hours and 3 hours the next day. trust me, i've spent a LOT of time with those people. but it's been good. :)

#3) it brought the community together and let them be proud of their young people. we proved to the adults that we are capable of doing something as big as this by ourselves. we had no adult guidance whatsoever...it was all run by us.

i need to let the critical perfectionist side of me let go of all of the errors, off-notes, and mess-ups from tonight.

tonight was a good night. i was running out of breath by the end bc of all the outfit changes right after another, but i had a LOT of fun & i'm really proud of us.

"we are a family // like a giant tree // branching out to the sky // we are a family // we are so much more // than just you and i."

here's to you, Youthical cast!

thanks for an amazing experience. :)))

*now off to bed for badminton in 7.5 hours...& then hula practice afterwards!

ps. thanks God. :) i hope you enjoyed the show tonight!