1000mph.

my head is swimming right now.
i'm so overwhelmed.
sometimes i wish that i knew from the very beginning that i wanted to go into dentistry.
i would have done things so differently.
i would have doubled up in bio & chem last year and taken physics & o.chem this year.
then i could take the DAT this summer and apply for LLU my junior year.
that way,
(if i got accepted),
I could have the option of starting dental school after i graduate
opposed to waiting an additional year for them to process my application.
i would have also taken trig last year instead of waiting.
(i thought i could skip it at AU and just go straight into calc.
so i didn't want to take trig here).
i wouldn't have gone through all of that trouble of even applying to andrews.
i would have stayed in the honors program so that i wouldn't have to make up any classes.

*sigh*
i know that God's timing is perfect and that in hindsight,
i'll see His divine hand every step of the way.
He is good, and i trust His plans.
i trust what He's doing in my life
and i trust the paths that He takes me down to get to where i need to go.
...
but sometimes that requires more faith than i can have at the moment.
this is one of those moments. =/
there's no reason for me to stress out,
i know that...
but i totally am.
there's so much on my mind...
i need someone to help me clear things up!
i can't wait for my appointments with my advisers!
i feel like i need to talk to them now.

i'm also in the process of contacting multiple dentists so that i can shadow them this winter break,
perhaps even starting next week cause i don't have any finals on monday.

i'm super apprehensive about next quarter.
hope i'm making the right decisions and not biting off more than i can chew.
next quarter is going to be HUGE. =/
1) the hardest quarter of bio (at least the hardest teacher)
2) i'm taking a full load (18 units) plus chambers (possibly) plus research
3) the classes that i'll be taking will have homework after every class period. that's going to be a sharp transition from this quarter. the classes that i'm taking this quarter don't have homework everyday, and i'm ALREADY spending so much time studying bio and physics.

AGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!
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someone save me.
:(