thoughts and secrets.

today was a pretty big day for me for several reasons.

one of them is that i know without a doubt that dentistry is my niche. given the specific wants, needs, and characteristics that I have, dentistry is the perfect fit. it's what God created me to be! it's such a satisfying feeling. when i shadowed different doctors in the past (HIV specialist, internist, pediatrician, PT, etc.) i only shadowed a few hours at a time, never the whole day. but today i spent the ENTIRE working day with uncle ken and LOVED it. and if i wasn't tired and if he had more patients, i would have stayed longer. all of the other shadowing dates that i scheduled for this break are not burdens to me. they're not something that i have to do and have to get over with. they are things that i genuinely look forward to! it's so crazy!

there's so much more i could say about the things that i realized today regarding dentistry, but i want to go sleep soon, so i'll end with that.

Daddy,
....
*happy sigh*
thank you
thank you, thank you, thank you.
for answering my prayers.
for Your timing.
for Your goodness.
for....everything.
i thought the day would never come when i would decide on an occupation
and actually feel at peace about it.
but i do.
the day has come.
and not only do i feel at peace about it....
i'm SUPER excited about it. more than i ever thought i could be!
this is it.
this is really it.
& i'm so happy right now.
thank you, thank you, thank you. :)
amen.

*ps. i think i'm really starting to like you.
like...really. :)
^ whatever You want, God....but I really hope that it’s what i want too.